Every year at some point a teacher asks you to describe a role model in your life. Coming up with an answer used to be easy for me, but growing up tends to change your perspective. I could lie to you and tell you I’ve had strong relationships in my life, however, an untruthful story is never fun to tell. I’m not who I used to be five years ago. Then again, who is? I have always been well cared for by my terrific family, who has always given me everything I’ve needed. However, I don’t have a role model nor people who have changed my life. I do have experiences that have molded me into who I am, made me stronger, and guided me to who I want to be. Everyone has different stories along with their own challenges. But, for as long as I can remember, I’ve had two things I can count on to help me through mine.
My dog was the runt of the litter. She was going to be taken to the pound, but I convinced my parents to let us have her. Ever since that day she has been my best friend. You’ll hear stories about a dog and human bond, but I can tell you there isn’t anything like the one I have with Molly. She’s like a shadow that you can’t shake but never want to, always at my heels. I know she is a dog, but she has always made me feel safe. Molly can make the darkness of the bedroom, to the light of a public place feel safer. Whenever I’ve fallen too far into thought over something, I can always count on her to roll in my hair or spin in circles, allowing me to come back to the real world. Molly may just be a dog, but I have always been able to count on her.
Trusting people has been hard for me for a while now. Although, I can always count on my past self. Meaning, I don’t know what the future entails, and the present is always changing. So what I can count on is the fact that the past can’t change, you can only learn from it. Learning from my mistakes, and the mistakes of those who have crossed my path shows me who I want to be. I can put up a good front, but fitting in has never been my strong suit. Throughout each day, my hair tends to be my safety net. When I feel bold enough to push my limits I have an updo, and when I wear my hair down it acts as a safety barrier. I’ll admit I’ve had some pretty risky colors, and through them I learned what fits me. All from your past self, you can learn anything from the people you want to surround yourself with, to people you want to stay away from, to even something as simple as hair colors that need avoiding. Learning from the past helps us to prepare for the future.
While learning a lot throughout my teenage years, as they’re coming to an end I’m hoping to find the place I can feel comfortable in my own skin. I believe that the Military is the place I will find my sense of purpose. The goal of the Armed Forces is to train you to serve and protect our country. I know that I can achieve who I want to become by enlisting and learning about myself altogether.
Overcoming your self-doubts is one of the hardest battles anyone will have to face. Although, having certain things you can count on is what matters. In the time of the past and present, I’ve had Molly and my past self. Looking towards the future, I’m hoping to have the Military in my life. Having this stability will provide me with confidence and dedication for my further endeavors. My experiences make me who I am, while my future shows me who I want to be.